I give in

It should be on the 15th of July. (I mean the day of submission). I give in. There is (and there has been) only one thing in my mind and this is the death of the father. And everything else is a try of the consciousness for survival...Looking for relevant stuff in the past. Trying to remember, who I am, I was...But still I couldn´t write everything I wanted... There are more things I wanted to write... Problems with the jobs in Vienna... After all I didn´t get mad there on one day...